mentality rate

well after last weekends love affair with all junk food on the planet [ice cream to diet coke to smartfood white cheddar popcorn...yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm] this weekend, i'm proud to say was a tad better.

i haven't been back to floor hockey though. aside from the family strife, my shoulder is killing me and i really, truely do not want to hurt it further playing floor hockey...running is hard enough.

speaking of running! this sunday i woke up early...8am...for no other reason than i spent Saturday cleaning my apt and organizing my clothes, which took til 11pm at which time i went to bed. so being the old fogy that i've become i got up early on sunday and strapped on the running shoes and went for a run on kits beach. came back with a headached. not a major one, but one of those..."just so you remember i'm here, i'm going to hang out here forever" type of headaches. I then took the rest of the day easy and went to sleep at 10pm.

woke up this morning and hit the treadmill at 6am and decided to challenge myself and hit the 5Km loop on the treadmill. it took 43mins to complete, but that also inc. the 5min warm up and cool down plus some minutes for some breaks. my quads tightened up by about the 25min mark and i just tried to push through and continued breathing. at about the 35min mark i increased the speed from a steady 5.0 to 6.0 for about 5mins.

i find it easier to breath while on a treadmill than while running outside and therefore am able to run a comfortable pace longer and keep the right shoulder in check. this is problematic as most 10km running events are indeed outside.

it's all mental

So I left off complaining [whining?] about my right shoulder. Well, aside from the fact that it still hurts, I push on!

Wednesday, Thursday and Friday last week were the first time I've been able to get up at 5:30am to head out for a run! I was so proud of myself for accomplishing this task. I've been wanting to get the exercise done in the morning for a couple of reasons.

1. I like to leave my evenings flexible for social activites.
2. The gym, seawall, kits park are crazy busy after work.
3. I tend not to do anything else after going to the gym in the evenings.
4. Sometimes watching some trashy TV lying on the couch in the evenings trumps running and lifting weights.

It was pretty darn awesome feeling.

Then Saturday was a day of acknowledgement. I got to speak to my best friend, who lives 4 hours away, for about an hour and completely divulge some of the more emotional issues that have been happening to the family. All of which I had been keeping at arms length. Well...they hit me like a brick and I felt really sad and alone all of a sudden. OH did I mention it was Valentines Day and I was single??? This is not a good mindset to be in to A) stick to your healthy living and B) want to exercise.

Common sense was telling me to buck up and go do something active. But in all honesty, I didn't want too. My resolve to do nothing outweighed my mental image of me ending up like either of my parents - overweight and cranky. Also, my couch was comfy. So was the quart of Hagen Daas Dulce de Leche ice cream. Yup.

Whoops.

This fog did not lift out of my head until Tuesday night. I tried to go for a run Wednesday morning, but it wasn't going to happen. However, I did manage to get in a run after work. Run/Walk 3:1 - running 9 times! I barely made it. My shoulder was killing me. The last two 3 min passes had me running 1min walking 1 min. It was cold and difficult to breath. But I did it. I had to do it. I had more desire to do it.

This morning I hauled my a$$ out of bed at 5:40am and went to the gym. It was just too cold and dark to think I could run outside this morning. But I did 2:2 on the tread mill for 30min. Jacked up the running spead from 5.0 to 6.2 for the last min and a half of the last 4 mins I ran straight. Awesome. Sure my shoulder was killing by the last 5min, but as soon as I jacked the speed and I had to pay attention to something else my shoulder was an after thought until the last 10 seconds. They were the longest 10 seconds.

Also: 30 burpees, 30 tricep squats, 30 leg squats

I thought my legs were going to go on strike and walk away on their own, with my shoulder following closely behind. Think it's time for physio on the shoulder.

With more family challenges ahead for the next month or so, the mental war continues. I did win this battle, although next time, I hope it doesn't last four days long.

**Oh.....this post on Women's Health Magazine also made me feel better something about busting myths!!

30 min Run

That's all I had in me yesterday. 30 min walk/run thing on the dreadmill. I was doing 2 and 2 for the first 20min then I just said "f*ck it" and ran for the last 12 min. All because the gym put a time limit on the dreadmills to 30min. So now there is really no way to complete the 45min run cycles if it's busy. Another push for me to go outdoors.

Also, my shoulder was acting up. I'm not entirely sure how this is happening.

After 6 months of chiro and one shoulder check in floor hockey and no volleyball, my right shoulder is killing me. Not sure if it's the flying to and from Reno last week [for work...noone voluntarily goes to Reno] or sleeping funny. All I know is that my right shoulder is KILLING me.

So now I sit here moving a mouse with my right hand trying to keep my right shoulder relaxed and pushed back and down. When the reality is I'd rather pull it out of the socket and bang it on the table. That's would be bad right?

Hopefully it will stop snowing. Running this evening. Outside.

terrible am i

oh i'm horrible! i was doing okay in Reno for food consumption....minus the two fast food laziness episodes...

but i only worked out once. ONCE all week.

this past weekend apparently chocolate, popcorn, diet coke [my complete nemisis] and dulce de leche ice cream were on the agenda of food consumption. Not to mention brunch at some louisiana food place on Granville Street after playing "golf" rather pitch 'n putt. You know, to practice the short game. This weekend was a complete and utter right off. I don't even think I've made any headway on my goals and what I have made, I completely blew off the last couple of weeks.

I think I need to reorganize my timetable.

I need time to do social things, but what I'm doing socially isn't helping my overall healthy goal. Floor Hockey is the one thing that I'm continuing to be not too fond of. There are a couple more weeks left on the schedule. Five to be exact. I think I can hold out until then - I've missed three weeks so far. I'm sure work will rear it's ugly head and deter me from attending again. I like watching but not really enjoying the playing part. But I've paid and I won't give up. Maybe just not sign up for next year.

Softball is starting soon. That will take over Monday night activities. But that is really fun and much more enjoyable.

As for the rest of my schedule. I desperately need a plan and I need to figure out how to stick to it more regularly.

Dare I try and run in the mornings again?

Trader Joe's

Well it's been one full week until I hit the treadmill again. Today. I did just that. I left the office at 5pm on the dot. Returned to the "high end" Best Western, and changed into the workout attire that I brought and hit the rickety old treadmill.
I'm not to comfortable running outside here in Reno. It's not a sidewalk friendly city, especially where I am staying, right by the airport. In fact...there doesn't seem to be a lot of sidewalks and I'm not in a residential area...so it's all busy, busy, busy, busy streets. I know it seems like an excuse, but at least I still hit the dreadmill. I think I'm just spoiled by getting to run in Vancouver, where runners are everywhere.

So while I'm here in Reno, I'm trying not to eat out so much, therefore I stocked the fridge with pre-packaged salads and other protein meals. All thanks to Trader Joe’s. Ergo, I’m not spending 30 bucks each day. I spent $35 for all the groceries.

This begs the question. Why is food so gosh darn expensive in Canada?

Oh dear god. There’s chicken in my fridge at home in Vancouver. It’s going to be a bad science experiment by the time I get back.

Crappy Living

So much for eating healthy. This past week has been a gong show for trying to eat right let alone hit the gym. Wednesday to Friday was brutal and I'm not done. Currently I'm in Nevada for work. Ergo, I haven't worked out in 5 days and now I don't have a stocked fridge with healthy options.

2 hours in Reno - Grilled Chicken Ranch BLT sandwich....from...McDonalds. FACK.

I'll have a healthy breaky tomorrow...right? RIGHT???

Hopefully I won't be working 12 hours tomorrow. But I do hope to hit the "gym" here at the hotel. Which I checked out and it smells like a sauna and is just as hot. Which is a god send because Reno, NV is pretty darn cold. Because there is no cloud cover. At least there will be sun!

Vitamin D whoot!

now if I can just get some Vit. B, C, etc. etc.